Holiday!

I'm flying to Melbourne next Tuesday!!! So cool!!!! But not going with M so that's one regret I have. But I know if I don't go now, I would regret it more!

I was just thinking about what I'd think about the most when I'm there. Would I think of my clients? *shudder* Would I think of M? *sigh* Or would I just be so excited that I fill my days with things to do and just not think? *thoughtful*

It is after all the first time I've exploring a country outside Asia. I think I'm quite a mountain tortoise. Heh... I think it's bound to be an eye opener!

Recently found that I'm keeping more and more of people's problems. I find that I'm starting to become less responsible, for my action, the words I say, and the thoughts I think. I find that I'm super stressed. I find that keeping things to myself is not good for my mental and physical health. I find that reflecting about what's going on actually helps me make sense of things that are happening around me. I find that my sixth sense is picking up things that I think is quite ridiculous. I find that rambling about my findings helps me organise my internal information.

I think having a break at this point is good. I can be far away and not have to worry about my work, which is kind of driving me crazy since I have a lot to do but at this point I don't feel like doing. Too many things are happening at the same time. Need to get away.... *gasp* Feel like I'm suffocating...

Need the wide wide fields of bigger countries, to escape, recharge and rethink about my boundaries; How much can I take?

I think I'm starting to get pessimistic.