Happy New Year?

It's the end of the year! And the beginning of the next! Like *DUH* right? Haha... How did you spend this interlude between the old and new year?

I remember one year, I went to Changi Airport with M and we walked back to my place from there coz we were too cheapskate to pay for the extra fees. Well, it was a pretty long walk and after much sweat, blood and frightening experiences, we finally got home 3-4 hours later. As you would have guessed, that's an experience I rather not repeat...

Then another where we went to the Esplanade and watched the fireworks. That was memorable coz we took our newly bought camera for a walk... We captured so many great pictures and videos!

Others before I met M were not as memorable... Maybe it's coz he's not with me... Maybe there's no expectancy in the coming of the new year... Maybe it's coz my parents dun allow me to go out too late... *Hahahaha...*

But I think he made my life so much fuller... I mean, with the exception of God, who can accept me with all my flaws and boo boos and silly things I do? Who can love me with such tenderness and sweetness that I never knew I could have? Who can take all my temper tantrums that I blame on PMS even though it may not be so and all the pushing away coz I was always testing him to see if he would leave me?

I'm glad that I would be marrying him, to say the vows that I would love and cherish him, in sickness and in health, in plenty or in lack, for better or for worse.

I love you darling... Happy New Year...

KTV!!!!!!!!!!!

I LUUUUURRRRRRRVEEEEE SINGING!!!!


Someone was asking me why I like to sing at KTVs when there was an occasion that I absolutely refused to sing.

You see, there's a difference in the situations. Whenever I'm with friends, I would definitely sing. In fact, I may snatch the microphone from them!! But what most people don't know is that I actually feel scared whenever I first start singing with a group of people. I never know whether people would laugh at me whenever I sing off key or miss the lyrics or something. And that is always my worst fear...

But in the other scenario, people have already started saying things like: "She's really good at singing!", or "Her voice is really great!" and things like that. It's like, people have a higher expectation when they hear good reviews of movies, but when they watch it, they feel really disappointed coz it doesn't meet their expectations. I have the absolute fear that with such pressure, I may croak on the first line or something...


Sigh.... my greatest fear is to be laughed at.

The other day, my supervisor gave me this comment. He said that although I am very afraid of being laughed at, yet I don't mind being the clown of the group! I guess when I am the clown, I believe that I'm in control of others' ridicule.

Oh well, I am such a control freak...