Alone

M went for reservist from today to Sunday. Even before he went, I was fretting about what I can do when he's not around during the weekend. I think my social circle has been suffering. I got loads of friends but I find it difficult to keep up the contacting and going out sessions.

Just the other day, we were starting to plan for our wedding and while thinking of the people whom we could ask to help, I had too many choices(or so it appeared to me) while M was having a much more limited choice. But then he started to ask me when I had kept in contact with these friends that I said that I have since I'm always with him. That made me think a little and I guess I have been neglecting some people that I had been close to in the past. I also think that I've been very insecure about M, always wanting to spend all my free time with him. If he's not free, then I'll go look for other friends to go out with... All my schedules revolve around him. Sigh... Guess I am becoming a possessive girlfriend... How?!?! *panic*

Well, I guess I need to apologise to all whom I have not seen very often for the past few years, especially those from my DG, people that I had spent lots of time with in NUS Crusade, and other friends from AHS and BMC... Call me when you're free? I promise to make time for you... Hee...