More updates on life

It's been a long time since I last blogged. Need an update!

I had my baptism on 16 April 2006! My spiritual birthday! Heh... And just as a baby born has his/her parents give him/her a name, my Heavenly Father has also given me a name! I am now Hannah! He wants me to become one with patience and gentleness. That even when others may mock me or when my closest may not understand me, I may be able to cry out to God and trust in His goodness.

I have loads of readings! I am now swamped under all the things I have to read. It doesn't help that progress is slow as I'm making notes for what I am reading, but one positive thing that has come out of this is that I understand what I am doing in my work and I don't feel like I'm grasping at nothing whenever I see my clients anymore! Hee...

M and I have found a place to hold our wedding banquet! It's quite nice and reasonable. And the best part is: the boss is my secondary school senior! Many years senior, of course... heh... So far, we just booked the date but I think we can bargain a bit more with him la!

I found my long lost primary school friends! And managed to find an old school photo that we took when we were in Primary 5. Comments like, "XX looks so cute!!", "We all looked very short hor?" were heard. Also, I also connected that a co-worker in my office is actually my primary school senior and my primary school classmate's brother! It's such a small world! Heh... And he also knew my brother... hahahahaha... I think I'll never be able to see him in the same way again. It's like an encounter with history...

Yeps, it's been exciting... Am looking forward to see how God would use me in my new life as "Hannah".

New name!

Hannah
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Hannah is a human name, which can either be a first name or a last name. When it is a first name it is almost always for a female. The name is currently popular in English-speaking countries, but comes from the Hebrew language, and means 'grace', 'favor', or (lesser known) 'charm'. The male form of Hannah is Hananiah.

Shoes galore!

I think I'm a bit kuku liao... Ever since the 2 pairs of heels from Bangkok, I've bought 2 more pairs! Die la...

Anyway, this is a pretty one from U.R.S. since I got a $20 voucher... Only paid $3.90 for it! hahahaha


This pair below is a personal favorite... Was just passing by Americaya when I was attracted by the "Sale" sign. Went in and saw this pair! It's unusually attractive and also really professional looking. The only thing is: it makes my feet hurt like hell... Sigh... the price of beauty... Cost: $32.90

Side profile 1

Side profile 2

Front view

Am I crazy or what...

Thanks

Sometimes, people do things that they know are right even though it's something that the affected people may not like.

Thanks, M, for doing what is right.

TRULY PISSED OFF!!!

I hate it when:

• I'm forced to wake up early all for NOTHING
• people don't understand what I'm talking about and don't bother to let me know
• my shoes cause me agony with each step I walk
• things are just shitty, and I'm too busy to sort it out!!!

Sigh... PMS has set in...

Me, the ENFP

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving
by Marina Margaret Heiss

Profile: ENFP
Revision: 3.0
Date of Revision: 25 Feb 2005

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[The following comes partially from the archetype, but mostly from my own dealings with ENFPs.]

General: ENFPs are both "idea"-people and "people"-people, who see everyone and everything as part of an often bizarre cosmic whole. They want to both help (at least, their own definition of "help") and be liked and admired by other people, on bo th an individual and a humanitarian level. They are interested in new ideas on principle, but ultimately discard most of them for one reason or another.

Social/Personal Relationships: ENFPs have a great deal of zany charm, which can ingratiate them to the more stodgy types in spite of their unconventionality. They are outgoing, fun, and genuinely like people. As SOs/mates they are warm, affectionate (l ots of PDA), and disconcertingly spontaneous. However, attention span in relationships can be short; ENFPs are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting about the older ones for long stretches at a time. Less mature ENFPs may need to feel they are the center of attention all the time, to reassure them that everyone thinks they're a wonderful and fascinating person.

ENFPs often have strong, if unconvential, convictions on various issues related to their Cosmic View. They usually try to use their social skills and contacts to persuade people gently of the rightness of these views; his sometimes results in their negle cting their nearest and dearest while flitting around trying to save the world.
Work Environment: ENFPs are pleasant, easygoing, and usually fun to work with. They come up with great ideas, and are a major asset in brainstorming sessions. Followthrough tends to be a problem, however; they tend to get bored quickly, especially if a newer, more interesting project comes along. They also tend to be procrastinators, both about meeting hard deadlines and about performing any small, uninteresting tasks that they've been assigned. ENFPs are at their most useful when working in a group w ith a J or two to take up the slack.

ENFPs hate bureaucracy, both in principle and in practice; they will always make a point of launching one of their crusades against some aspect of it.

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Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

by Joe Butt

ENFPs are friendly folks. Most are really enjoyable people. Some of the most soft-hearted people are ENFPs.

ENFPs have what some call a "silly switch." They can be intellectual, serious, all business for a while, but whenever they get the chance, they flip that switch and become CAPTAIN WILDCHILD, the scourge of the swimming pool, ticklers par excellence. Som etimes they may even appear intoxicated when the "switch" is flipped.

One study has shown that ENFPs are significantly overrepresented in psychodrama. Most have a natural propensity for role-playing and acting.

ENFPs like to tell funny stories, especially about their friends. This penchant may be why many are attracted to journalism. I kid one of my ENFP friends that if I want the sixth fleet to know something, I'll just tell him.

ENFPs are global learners. Close enough is satisfactory to the ENFP, which may unnerve more precise thinking types, especially with such things as piano practice ("three quarter notes or four ... what's the difference?") Amazingly, some ENFPs are adept at exacting disciplines such as mathematics.

Friends are what life is about to ENFPs, moreso even than the other NFs. They hold up their end of the relationship, sometimes being victimized by less caring individuals. ENFPs are energized by being around people. Some have real difficulty being alone , especially on a regular basis.

One ENFP colleague, a social worker, had such tremendous interpersonal skills that she put her interviewers at ease during her own job interview. She had the ability to make strangers feel like old friends.

ENFPs sometimes can be blindsided by their secondary Feeling function. Hasty decisions based on deeply felt values may boil over with unpredictable results. More than one ENFP has abruptly quit a job in such a moment.

Functional Analysis:

Extraverted iNtuition

The physical world, both geos and kosmos, is the ENFP's primary source of information. Rather than sensing things as they are, dominant intuition is sensitive to things as they might be. These extraverted intuitives are most adept with patterns and connections. Their natural inclination is toward relationships, especially among people or living things.

Intuition leans heavily on feeling for meaning and focus. Its best patterns reflect the interesting points of people, giving rise to caricatures of manner, speech and expression.

Introverted Feeling

Auxiliary feeling is nonverbally implied more often than it is openly expressed. When expressed, this logic has an aura of romance and purity that may seem out of place in this flawed, imperfect world. In its own defense, feeling judgement frequently and fleetly gives way to humor. ENFPs who publicize their feelings too often may put off some of the crowd of friends they naturally attract.

Extraverted Thinking

Thinking, the process which runs to impersonal conclusions, holds the extraverted tertiary position. Used on an occasional basis, ENFPs may benefit greatly from this ability. Less mature and lacking the polish of higher order functions, Thinking is not well suited to be used as a prominent function. As with other FP types, the ENFP unwary of Thinking's limitations may find themselves most positively mistaken.

Introverted Sensing

Sensing, the least discernible ENFP function, resides in the inner world where reality is reduced to symbols and icons--ideas representing essences of external realities. Under the influence of the ever-present intuition, the ENFP's sensory perceptions are in danger of being replaced by hypothetical data consistent with pattern and paradigm. When it is protected and nourished, introverted sensing provides information about the fixed. From such firm anchoring ENFPs are best equipped to launch into thousands of plausibilities and curiosities yet to be imagined.

Perhaps the combination of introverted Feeling and childlike introverted Sensing is responsible for the silent pull of ENFPs to the wishes of parents, authority figures and friends. Or perhaps it's the predominance of indecisive intuition in combination with the ambiguity of secondary Fi and tertiary Te that induces these kind souls to capitulate even life-affecting decisions. Whatever the dynamic, ENFPs are strongly influenced by the opinions of their friends.

Famous ENFPs:

Franz Joseph Haydn
Samuel Clemens (Mark Twain)
Will Rogers
Buster Keaton
Theodor "Dr." Seuss Geisel (The Cat in the Hat)
Mickey Rooney
James Dobson ("Focus on the Family")
Andy Rooney
Carol Burnett
Paul Harvey
Elizabeth Montgomery (Bewitched)
Bill Cosby (Ghost Dad)
Dom Delouise, actor
Dave Thomas, owner of Wendy's hamburger chain
Lewis Grizzard, newspaper columnist
I. King Jordan, president of Gallaudet University
Martin Short, actor-comedian
Meg Ryan, actor (When Harry Met Sally)
Robin Williams, actor, comedian (Dead Poet's Society, Mrs. Doubtfire)
Sandra Bullock, actor (Speed, While You Were Sleeping)
Robert Downey (Heart and Souls)
Alicia Silverstone (Clueless)
Sinbad
Andy Kaufman
Regis Philbin

Fictional:
Dr. Doug Ross (ER)
Balkie (Perfect Strangers)
Ariel (The Little Mermaid)
The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
Steve Irkle

Copyright © 1996-2005 by Marina Margaret Heiss and Joe Butt

Blown Bangkok...

I'm a shopaholic. I admit it... I just LOVE Bangkok!!! It gives me so much licence to shop!! hahahahaha... Guess it doesn't help that I don't really keep track of my spending when I'm there... Some pictures to tempt you to boost the Thai economy!

Glam glam shoes for only 199Baht and 259Baht respectively!!!


Fantastic looking bag... and it smells a lot like leather too! From Chatuchak weekend market, selling for 350Baht.

I also bought a pair of Levi's 593 (Authentic) there for only S$60! How much better can it get?

Of course, I didn't spend the whole trip just shopping...

The MRT system there looks great! It even has a screen on the glass panes beside the sliding doors at the stations! Beats TVMobile any day! Not that I can understand what they are saying tho... =) And the best part about the MRT is that it brings us everywhere without any worries of the previously notorious traffic jams in Bangkok!



And I wouldn't pass up the chance for great food either. =P A roadside stall at the Chinatown in Bangkok served up monstrous size prawns like these... Fantastic food! No wonder we're losing all our tourists from the neighbouring countries there...

It was a good trip, tho something marred it in the end... But I guess what counted was the relationships that got struck up while we were there. =)
I definitely burned my wallet and bank account this time... Sigh...

Birthday '06

My birthday just came and went... It's kinda different this year... Feel very touched with a lot of people giving me well wishes and all. Some photos to let you see how loved I am!

My birthday cake from my A Maths tuition class!


THE social worker's survivor kit.


Present from my colleagues! (Though I haven't read it yet... Hee....)



Special mention of my dear beloved Wobbly... which had been suspected to be made of *cough*mucus*cough*...

Thanks to all who made it such a fantastic time for me!

*MUAKS!!!!*

An itch that cannot be soothed...

Itchy.

Must not... *scratch* *scratch* *scratch*

Sick...

Sigh... Have been sick for the past few days... Dizziness, conjunctivitis, back ache... I wonder if I'm growing old...

Vampire Red

Like my nail colour? I did this myself!!!

Maybe when I retire, I should become a manicurist...

SMS From The Body Shop

Birthday Wishes from The Body Shop! Don't forget to enjoy your birthday privilege of a one-time 20% disc. off all regular-priced items in the mth of March.

Anyone wants anything from The Body Shop?

New look

Say, how do you like it?

I am?

What is disappointment? Or anger? Or jealousy?

I wonder how it'd be like if I could express all my emotions freely without fear of shame, recriminations, and all sorts of negative consequences. Maybe I've lived a life of masks too long so much so that I don't know how to be real anymore. Seeing how negative emotions are in the world around me, I would never be able to be me. It'd be too damaging.

How do I express emotions constructively? That's a question I'm asking myself so often nowadays.

I am not me.

It's so easy to hide your fear and hurt under the mask of anger or even indifference but they eat at you until you're nothing left. You have to be sure the other person you tell your fear and hurts to will not throw it back at your face and tell you not to feel so in many different ways.

I want to be me.

someone says...

someone says: "I wanna leave you."

someone says: "I've had enough of you."

someone says: "I haven't seen you for a very long time."

someone says: "You need to clarify if you don't understand what was being said."

someone says: "I'm lowly educated, that's why I don't know what she is talking about."

someone says: "I saw a doctor and was told that I have hardening blood vessels."

someone says: "I wish you would be more understanding."

someone says: "She's always like that."

someone says: " I don't know what to do anymore."

But He says: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

and I say: "I will take Your yoke upon me and learn from You, for You are gentle and humble in heart, and I will find rest for my soul. For Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light."

What colour am I?

Yellows are motivated by fun. They are inviting and

embrace life as a party which they're

hosting. They love playful interaction and

can be extremely sociable and persuasive.

They seek instant gratification. YELLOWS need

to be adored and praised. While YELLOWS are

carefree, they are quite sensitive and highly

alert to others motives to control them.

YELLOWS carry within themselves the gift of a

good heart.

YELLOWS need to look good socially, and friendships

command a high priority in their lives.

YELLOWS are happy, highly verbal, easily

bored, and crave adventure. They can never

sit still for long. They choose friends who,

like themselves, refuse to allow lifes boring

details stifle their curiosity. They embrace

each day in the present tense. YELLOWS are

charismatic, spontaneous, positive, and can

be irresponsible, obnoxious, and forgetful.

When you deal with a YELLOW praise and adore

them, take a positive, upbeat approach, and

promote creative and fun activities for and

with them.


What Color Are You?
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Rival in love...

What can you do
when I feel that way to
a hard and lifeless tool.
It takes away his gloom
yet it is his time's tomb.
I feel like such a fool
for losing his attention to
this darned computer doomed!

On leave till 1 Feb

As the title says, I am currently on leave. You'd think that it's something to be really happy about but I've been sweating like nobody's business these days. With all the cleaning and painting and walking and buying and crying, it's a miracle that I'm still kicking...

I wonder how i'm gonna do it if I have my own house... Who's gonna do it for me?

Anyway, I have also given up 6 days of my leave because I forgot to clear them before they expired. When I tell people, they don't understand why I didn't remember to clear them. To tell the truth, I have no idea what I'm gonna do if I take leave. When I told my mum that, she said that there's loads of things to do, it's just that I don't know. Seriously, that is one reason why I don't wanna take leave. I mean, if I have to spend time cleaning the house on my day of leave, what kind of a rest day is that? Sheesh... That's one reason why I wouldn't tell them when I take leave and just go out as per normal. Ironically, my mum did the same thing so that she didn't have to listen to my grandmother nag at her.

I wonder if she notices the similarity...

*Drool*...

I WANT!!!!!!!!!!

MacBook Pro

15.4inch: 1.67GHz Intel Core Duo
S$ 3,688.00

Estimated Ship: February
Free Shipping

15.4-inch TFT display with 1440x900 resolution
1.67GHz Intel Core Duo processor with 2MB shared L2 Cache
667MHz frontside bus
512MB (single SO-DIMM) 667MHz DDR2 SDRAM (PC2-5300)
80GB 5400rpm Serial ATA hard drive
Slot-load SuperDrive (DVD±RW/CD-RW)
ATI Mobility Radeon X1600 with 128MB GDDR3 memory

*Slurp!*

Alone

M went for reservist from today to Sunday. Even before he went, I was fretting about what I can do when he's not around during the weekend. I think my social circle has been suffering. I got loads of friends but I find it difficult to keep up the contacting and going out sessions.

Just the other day, we were starting to plan for our wedding and while thinking of the people whom we could ask to help, I had too many choices(or so it appeared to me) while M was having a much more limited choice. But then he started to ask me when I had kept in contact with these friends that I said that I have since I'm always with him. That made me think a little and I guess I have been neglecting some people that I had been close to in the past. I also think that I've been very insecure about M, always wanting to spend all my free time with him. If he's not free, then I'll go look for other friends to go out with... All my schedules revolve around him. Sigh... Guess I am becoming a possessive girlfriend... How?!?! *panic*

Well, I guess I need to apologise to all whom I have not seen very often for the past few years, especially those from my DG, people that I had spent lots of time with in NUS Crusade, and other friends from AHS and BMC... Call me when you're free? I promise to make time for you... Hee...