Steps to plan a surprise birthday celebration

1. Don't celebrate it with too much ado for past 5 years
2. Plan a pre-wedding briefing a few days before the actual
3. Plot with friend to buy cake, get people to share present, purchase present (gadget) online 1 week before briefing
4. Get present delivered to your office
5. Smuggle it into the house
6. Leave it
7. On actual day, surprise with cake arrival with friend
8. Surprise other people who have no idea that it's that person's birthday
9. Present the cake (with lit candles)
10. Present the present after candle is blown!

SURPRISE, M!!!

HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY!!!


*MUAKZ*

The date looms...

Getting more and more worried, more and more stressed... the marriage seems easier than the wedding... shucks...

Some people might be going for a mission trip on the date of my wedding...
A part of me is feeling kinda glad coz i dunno if the church i'm using can put in so many people. But the other part of me feels sad that they won't be able to come... dilemma dilemma...

Oh well, a preview of me!



Pretty???

Losers...

I have been living in a state of denial for too long...

I AM OUT OF SHAPE!!!
*I refuse to say the "f**" word...* =P


So loser I must be right now...

It's so not easy I tell you...




Anyway, I feel like a loser...

Nobody likes me,
Everybody hates me,
I'm gonna eat some worms...

Ok, maybe I need to tell myself that not EVERYBODY hates me...

I am loved. I am lovingly and wonderfully made by God.

Just because *you* don't like me doesn't mean I deserve to be treated as an outcast.

Fed up.

Dead tired...

As the title says, that's the state I'm in, both physically, mentally and emotionally...

Saw a friend's msn nick: "Draining very badly... Chingay drains." I think she's involved in it.

I feel empty. Like nothing's inside. I know many things are craving for my attention but I don't really feel like doing. I just want to find some place and hide. And read. And sleep.

Maybe I've been dredging the last of me for too long. Nothing's inside no more.

Need God, need healing, need refilling, need reinforcing.

When? Right here. Right now.

Too much money?!

You know that the housing authority in Singapore is too rich when you receive a letter from them containing 2 lines in the main body text.

Sick.

Unequally yoked?

I was at a friend's church wedding today and the couple really looked great! He looked as if he was brimming over with happiness and she was too. It brought to my mind this conversation I had with M. He was talking about some colleagues who were talking about how good their boyfriends were. They were christians but their boyfriends were not. While M was wowed by all the descriptions they were giving about their other halves, there was also a part of him which felt a little strange. He was thinking that all these actions don't really define a person and that why did they have to try so hard to justify their actions?

He was also saying that they had told him that they could not find good christian males that they could be attracted to. And I wondered: is it true that all single christian males are so unattractive or what? I looked around at all of the guys who fitted the above description today and perhaps I'm looking at them through tinted glasses (they are all my friends... heh... how else would I know their status right?), but they all appear alright to me! I mean, they're nice and thoughtful people... so what happened???

Maybe they just didn't meet, or maybe we, like everyone else, have placed fellow christians on the pedestal. So perhaps when they do anything that falls short of perfection, we point the finger at them (either consciously or unconsciously) or think they are less worthy.

I don't know, this is just random ramblings... what do you think??