Exercise

I don't HATE exercise...

I just hate people bugging me to exercise and do so regularly.

Come on! It's my body right? Who cares what you think? (Maybe with the exception of some people...)

If I want to exercise, I do it for me! If I want to slim down, I do it for me!

It's me people will be commenting about the weight gain and all so get off my back already!

GRRRRR.....

Mysterious birthday...

My birthday came and went quickly...

So quickly that I didn't even feel like I was celebrating it!

I quarrelled with M 2 nights consecutively before the big day and it was rather horrible....

Then on the actual day, it was no wonder that I was in a horrid mood...

But suddenly, things got a little better...

And it got a little clearer why I was being so emotional.

PMS sucks!!!

Oh... And i got a mysterious birthday card today... It wasn't signed so I have no idea who sent it...

Someone let me know???

The date looms...

Getting more and more worried, more and more stressed... the marriage seems easier than the wedding... shucks...

Some people might be going for a mission trip on the date of my wedding...
A part of me is feeling kinda glad coz i dunno if the church i'm using can put in so many people. But the other part of me feels sad that they won't be able to come... dilemma dilemma...

Oh well, a preview of me!



Pretty???

Losers...

I have been living in a state of denial for too long...

I AM OUT OF SHAPE!!!
*I refuse to say the "f**" word...* =P


So loser I must be right now...

It's so not easy I tell you...




Anyway, I feel like a loser...

Nobody likes me,
Everybody hates me,
I'm gonna eat some worms...

Ok, maybe I need to tell myself that not EVERYBODY hates me...

I am loved. I am lovingly and wonderfully made by God.

Just because *you* don't like me doesn't mean I deserve to be treated as an outcast.

Fed up.

Robogirl!

Guys VS Gals

Last Saturday, M and I were at our new place and we wanted to take out the vacuum cleaner to use. Mind you, this was its first time and we were overcame with this intense desire to take a picture of its cuteness.

Can you imagine? We actually argued about how to arrange the equipment!


This is how he arranged it.

This was how I arranged it...













So which appeals more to you?

Dead tired...

As the title says, that's the state I'm in, both physically, mentally and emotionally...

Saw a friend's msn nick: "Draining very badly... Chingay drains." I think she's involved in it.

I feel empty. Like nothing's inside. I know many things are craving for my attention but I don't really feel like doing. I just want to find some place and hide. And read. And sleep.

Maybe I've been dredging the last of me for too long. Nothing's inside no more.

Need God, need healing, need refilling, need reinforcing.

When? Right here. Right now.

Wishlist

Ok, so I'm gonna have to think of the list right?
Here goes:

1) Ironing board
2) Convention oven
3) Bookshelves (lots of them)
4) Rugs/ easy-to-clean carpets
5) Curtains
6) Bed sheets (Queen size)
7) Dining table
8) Pictures/ artwork
9) Coffee table

I think that's it so far...

What we got:
1) Bed frame + mattress + pillows
2) Sofa + sofa bed
3) TV + hifi system
4) TV rack
5) Clothes cabinet
6) Shoes cabinet
7) Refrigerator
8) Washing machine
9) Chairs, stools
10) Window grilles
11) Kitchen cabinets
12) Rice cooker
13) Iron
14) Standing fan
15) Computer speakers
16) Lights
17) Reading lamp
18) Curtain roads
19) Water heaters

I think that's all...

Advice & wishlist

So. I was wondering if I should put up a wish list right?

Was talking to someone in church on Sunday and she was sharing her experience of starting a new family. Even before I said anything, she told me to go and find what I want, note the brand and model and pass to people for them to get for me! I think God says, "GO! Put up a wish list! I will fulfil them for you!" Heh... Feel so blessed!

Yeah, so here goes:

1) Ironing board
2)
3)

And the story goes like this:
I don't think we know what we need. So... Any suggestions?

Heh...

Wedding shoes!

Yeah, of all the things to buy first, I go and get the shoes...






But............

That's nothing new right? Heh...



See? Pretty??

To have or not to have?

Have been struggling to decide if I should put up a wish list for my house or not. On one hand, when I talk about it, friends tell me that it's a good idea coz then they know what they can get for me. On the other hand, I feel bad to tell people what to get... Struggle struggle...

I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not the meditating kids!! @#%$^#$@^@*

The sofa! The bed!!

Home... Painted!

The study... Should we just convert this into a living area? Hmmm....

One of the rooms. They are all in this shade of yellow... I like!

My favorite part of the house... The living room with a full length window... A daybed and shelves of books with a mini compo would be best...

via MSN

Me says: what happened to J?
X says: why>?
X says: i dun know le
X says: what about?
Me says: his msn nick write something abt him in icu, no voice....
Me says: you din see his msn nick?
X says: i dun know le
X says: dun know what he mean
Me says: Heh…
Me says: ok...
Me says: but he's not sick physically or anything la
X says: no la
X says: he now stress over his c programming assignment.. haha
X says: keep making noise at me for not helping him
X says: which i can't cuz i don't know how to..
Me says: hahahahahahahahahha.....
X says: did the basics but can't remember already
Me says: mayb that's the icu he meant....
X says: i psychology trainned not c pro
X says: yeah maybe that's his icu
Me says: hahahahahahahahaahahaha,,,,,
Me says: he very farnie la...
.....
X says: oh the person in icu is his wife... the computer
Me says: oh
Me says: you managed to ask him la.....
X says: the computer dumped him
X says: and had an accident
Me says: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha....
X says: so now refused to work
Me says: so farnie!!!
X says: so he very depressed..
Me says: life sux....
Me says: hahahahahahah
X says: think a divorced is on the way
X says: he might be remarrying if not fix which means his dad had to spent money get him one more wife
Me says: well, as long as his parents can pay the dowry for the next wife, i'm sure it'll be alright...
Me says: hahahahahaha
X says: totally disgusting le
X says: dun know how he use the wife one
X says: everytime break down.. once in 6 mths
Me says: well, must be quite vigorously....
Me says: hahahahahahahahahhaha
X says: hahahaahaha!!!!!!
Me says: dunno what to say....
X says: even mine after 5 year still working fine.. though i brought it for makeover
Me says: laff or to cry....
Me says: oh well...
X says: damn sad right
X says: he
Me says: it's a matter of how siong he uses it lor...
Me says: y0ou dun use for LAN games what....
X says: yeah la..i dun let my "wife" get connected to other people ok...
X says: so won't get disease mah
X says: haahah this is dumb
Me says: yes...
Me says: i get what you mean...
Me says: it's hilarious la i tell you...
Me says: i should post this on my blog....
X says: haha the whole conversation? haha!
Me says: ya!!!

What to buy, what to buy...

A whole new world!

We have our new home now! We collected the keys to our new flat on the 3rd of January and we can't wait to move in!

I can't say it's been very smooth. M and I have been squabbling over the most minute details, like what colour to paint the wall, which item of the furniture we should buy first, whether to do window grilles or not, etc... Sometimes I get frustrated coz he only listens to part of what I tell him and he asks me the question that I have already given the answer to... Sigh... I think God is wanting me to live up to the name I adopted now... Patience, my dear... I thank God that M's so patient and slow to anger with me... Or else, we might not just be squabbling but killing each other... Thank you, darling...

My dad was also angry coz he thinks that I value Jesus Christ higher than him... It's been tense around at home and I try to minimise the contact I have with him daily... It's no joke to be around someone who does not want to see you... I catch myself running down the list of people I might want to walk with me down the aisle on my wedding day constantly, but God tells me that I need to honor my parents. So what can I do? Stuck... Sigh... Must pray....

Faith that is tested is stronger than that which is not... I must persevere!

Anyway, some photos to share my joy!

Too much money?!

You know that the housing authority in Singapore is too rich when you receive a letter from them containing 2 lines in the main body text.

Sick.

Damned both ways...

Damned if I say anything, damned if I don't.

Damn! I wish life was easier...

Unequally yoked?

I was at a friend's church wedding today and the couple really looked great! He looked as if he was brimming over with happiness and she was too. It brought to my mind this conversation I had with M. He was talking about some colleagues who were talking about how good their boyfriends were. They were christians but their boyfriends were not. While M was wowed by all the descriptions they were giving about their other halves, there was also a part of him which felt a little strange. He was thinking that all these actions don't really define a person and that why did they have to try so hard to justify their actions?

He was also saying that they had told him that they could not find good christian males that they could be attracted to. And I wondered: is it true that all single christian males are so unattractive or what? I looked around at all of the guys who fitted the above description today and perhaps I'm looking at them through tinted glasses (they are all my friends... heh... how else would I know their status right?), but they all appear alright to me! I mean, they're nice and thoughtful people... so what happened???

Maybe they just didn't meet, or maybe we, like everyone else, have placed fellow christians on the pedestal. So perhaps when they do anything that falls short of perfection, we point the finger at them (either consciously or unconsciously) or think they are less worthy.

I don't know, this is just random ramblings... what do you think??

I am She-Ra!!

I've been given the comment that I'm too effective. I'm too quick to do/think things that I tend to mother people.

Seriously, I have no idea that I was doing so. I only think that since I can do it, I should help out. But I guess that makes people around me feel redundant...

I guess I need to slow down and wait for others to do things. But I don't want to be a doormat too! What can I do?

The same person also commented that I tend to justify myself and my actions so much that it seems like I'm wanting to win the argument. I thought about it and I guess it would be really irritating if I were in the other person's shoes.

However, I also wonder... I am sharing things from my own perspective. It's not implausible that I would think what I'm doing is right. So is it me now justifying myself or is it actually the other person refusing to validate my experience? I actually feel quite sad now... I share what I'm feeling and thinking, only to have the other person throw it at me and say that I win already.

Sigh... Guess I'm not She-Ra after all... Can anyone help me?? How can I be a better builder/supporter of people around me?