I GOT MY IPOD MINI!!!! WOO HOO!!!!

I GOT MY IPOD MINI!!! WOO HOO!!!! It's a cool silver 2nd generation iPod!! heh.... Just got it from the hands of a newly ROM-ed couple who got it as a gift from their friends. And quite a low price at that, for a brand new machine...

I was initially quite hesitant to trust the guy coz i mean, i got to know him through Yahoo Auctions ma... I was so worried that i even got M to talk to him when it was time to meet up. Heh... I also told him to make sure i open it up and examine the contents before giving the money (although i did give the seller money first before i opened it up coz the seller looked quite appalled at my suggestion. Heh...)

Well, he came down with his wife and yup, it was a happy ending coz they got a look at the BEEEYOOOTEEFUUUULLL thing that they just missed out on. Oh well... Heh... Such is life... *glee!*

Oh! By the way, on a thanksgiving note, God showed his love and grace for me by holding the rain, not once, not twice, but thrice!
It's like when I woke up this morning, the sky was overcast and looked gloomy. So i was thinking about what kind of shoes i would have to wear to make sure I don't get cold feet (pun intended). So anyway, when i came out from the bathroom, the sky was nice and sunny! Wow... and I was just thanking God for that. So i went out happily and as i went to the train station, the dark clouds loomed in the very near distance and the sky was constipated once again.

When I reached my stop, it still had not rained so i walked briskly to the office. Just as i was within 1 metre to the nearest shelter of the connected building, it started to pour like nobody's business... God is good! (Though a few of my colleagues did get wet... *sheepish laugh*) Well, maybe He wanted me to be in a good mood for morning devotion with Pastor James. Heh...

So the 3rd time was when I was about to meet M for dinner. When i finished attending to my case at closing time, it was pouring cats and dogs. However, by the time i finished packing, it stopped again! How great is the God who watches over us and takes care of our every minute need!

Yups, am reminded of the fact that God is still the Lord, the one who created us. In Leviticus, He reminded the Israelites many times but they did not pay heed. I think God is trying to tell me something... Shall I be the stubborn mule any longer?

Sigh... the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak... God must prevail in my life! I must die to self and carry the cross daily...

The iPod Mini is a joke to the above statement isn't it?

Updates on life

It's strange how I have been getting emails from 2 persons that I have not heard from for quite a while. One is a friend I got to know from uni. After her graduation, she flew off to France and soon after, I heard that her boyfriend had proposed to her and she's getting married. Afterwards, there was no other news of her...

Another friend, Y, was my kindergarten cum primary 1 classmate and I lost contact with her until I went to JC. That was when I got to see her again. But after graduation, I lost contact with her again. So it's been 6 years since i last saw her...

You know you're getting older when the people you have not seen for many years start to want to meet up with you.

You know you're getting older when you reminisce about the good ol' times that was more than 10 years ago.

You know you're getting older when a simple illness takes more than a day to heal and you're feeling like shit while you're at it.

You know you're getting older when you think about getting a manicure when your nails are long.

You know you're getting older when a simple jog causes your whole body to protest and threaten to disintegrate.

You know you're getting older when all you're thinking of is buying very expensive stuff (e.g. IPod Mini...) which one would never think about 3 years ago.

Yes, I'm all of the above.

Die la... My money no enough!

Which Malaysian Blogger are you?

Congratulations HF, you are...

minishorts of minishorts.net

You are outgoing, direct, smart, pretty, and a definite go-getter. You are frank, a little too frank perhaps that sometimes you get on people's nerves and make them very upset. If people attack you, you hit back with triple the force without blinking because you are the kind of person who knows exactly what you are talking about or else you wouldn't talk about it. Your quick-thinking is what makes you special. You are an elitist.

Which Malaysian Blogger Are You?

Olympic Games of the future

Heh... See this! I think it's have you rolling on the floor in laughter...

And, i got this sms that just obviously shouts SCAM!! to all who reads it:



These people are crazy...

Strange people

I arrived at the lift under my block of flats and saw a neighbour. Now, i don't really know her very well, but I've seen her before. She used to wear very loose fitting clothes and with her haircut, looked quite like a male.

Recently, she has started work and looks much better with her change of clothes and haircut.

What happened at the lift landing was strange... She saw me and gave me a very fierce look. She surveyed me from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. And it did not just happen once, but twice! The best part was, I was looking at her while she was giving me the once over.

Sometimes, people will look away when they are caught looking at you? I mean, I've got quite a bit of experience, especially with the Bangladesh workers.

It's like the time when I was crying on a bus. The 2 Bangladesh workers sitting in front of me kept surreptiously turning back to look at me. They would also quickly turn back their head when they see me looking at them. They were also trying to use the window as a mirror to see what's going on. Hahahahaha... Amusement in the midst of sadness...

So anyway, back to the episode. Thoughts just ran wild in my head as I went into the lift with her. I didn't really dare to look at her but I could feel her stare... I was wondering if there was something wrong with me, like my skirt was too short or that I was too fat or what.

Of course she could also be looking me me coz I'm pretty...

Right?

IPod & me (Overkill I)http://www.blogger.com/img/gl.link.gif

I received a call from the recently returned Adinahaes.

A: Hey dear! I saw your blog. I like your design! Anyway, if you wanna buy an IPod mini or something, I've got 10% discount at the Apple shops in Australia.
Me: You are not serious?!
A: I am! why didn't you tell me you wanted one BEFORE I came back?
Me: How was I supposed to know that you had the 10% discount?! ARGH!!! (Groan of agony, collapsing & frothing from the mouth...)

Sigh... Anyway, after some calculations, I figured that the price is about the same after currency conversions and all. So... *shrugs*

Can somebody tell me if they got some discount somewhere that I have no idea about so that I won't miss out on such things again?

IPod and other peripherals II

Yes... I've gone on an overkill and made myself more depressed by adopting this blog design.

I want an IPod! It can be a mini, or a pretty, white one... Anyone wanna sponsor me? Hee...

Crush

I was at MacDonald's just now and saw this girl having breakfast with an army boy. Part of the conversation goes like this:

G: Go and buy breakfast la!
AB: You know, you come so early all the way to Pa**r R*s just to eat with me, people will think you xiao!
G: Aiya, it's ok la... Go and buy breakfast or later I'll be late!
(After some other conversation...)
G: ... you'll be so bored eating breakfast here alone!

This conversation made me smile as i thought of all the times I would do crazy things like this as well. And this was especially when I was interested in the other person. So when he said that, I was really cringing within... I mean, do you expect a female to say: "Yeah, i'm interested in you or else I will not do something like this for you!" Sigh... Males... The most thick-headed species of the human race...

Anyway, the craziest thing I ever did for a guy whom I liked must be the time when I got ice-cream from 7-Eleven outside school and coz I was worried it might melt, I even brought my own newspapers to wrap it up so that it won't just become cream. The worst part was: The guy did not appreciate it! Apparently, he was having a tummyache that day but he didn't say it. So I got quite offended and just left the ice-cream there, whether he took it or not is another matter...

Heh... Eventually, he did take it, despite the tummyache and all... He also gave me a treat to apologise for the incident as well as to celebrate my birthday. It was one awkward dinner as I didn't really know what to talk to him even though I could be considered as one of the most talkative amongst all my friends. Well, managed to pull through the dinner and I think I had a good time. I said "I think" coz my heart was beating so hard during the whole time that I can't really remember what we talked about anymore.

Heh... yes... You may have guessed who it is... The rest is history... and the present... and the future...

IPod mini & other peripherals

I know I must be crazy when I start dreaming about owning an IPod Mini. The best thing was: It was free! Someone had so kindly given it to me. hahahahaha.... I don't remember the person though, otherwise I would go and look for the person and try to get him/her to really get me one. Heh... Fat hope i guess...

My brother had been bugging me about getting this OSIM foot massager for my dad as a Fathers' Day present. I have already told him that I didn't have any money and he went as far as to suggest that I pay him when we get our bonuses at the end of the year while he buys one first. I really though it was quite redundant given the fact that I think my mum enjoys the time when she massages me dad's feet. (That's when they talk and have legitimate physical contact in the public...) Also, the last time he got a massager, my dad used it for a grand total of... *drumroll* ... 2 weeks (Maximum.) before he complained that it was too heavy and didn't help much. So that went into obscurity. (Or rather into the cupboard where almost nobody ever opens.)

The other thing to mention is this: my brother is terrible at managing his own finances. He used to spend every cent he has and then borrow from me or my mum in order to get by. (He does it less often these days but i really don't think he has much savings.) So if he were to buy this, he probably will find it difficult (Impossible, rather...) to get by for the next few weeks till he gets his pay. So i don't really want him to use future money to pay for this thingy.

Well, things came to a climax when he said that he wanted to get the massager today. I refused point blank, saying that we could wait till we get our bonuses AT THE END OF THE YEAR! That's not too long to wait, isn't it? But NOOOOOOO.... He has to get it NOW... And he has the cheek to message me: "We really have to do what we need to do." Is that ridiculous or what? You mean, I die die also must cough out an amount of money to pay for this frivolous thing that MY BROTHER wants to buy? It's not even a request from my dad! So when i asked him why he would want to force me to buy something that i don't agree to buy, he said that he didn't! He obviously does not see it as emotional blackmail as it really is... Argh!

Anyway, the final conclusion of this story is: My brother decided to buy a watch for my dad instead. He has not asked me if i wanted to share but i'm just waiting for him to open his mouth and ask.

I know he will. Don't ask me how i know.

Testing, testing one two three! Testing!

I went for an accreditation test today. It was kind of nerve wracking considering the fact that the place was at the extreme northwest of the country and my place of work was at the east. I had to take a cab all the way down and it cost me A LOT OF MONEY!! It didn't help that there was a traffic jam and i was already late!! (Or so i thought coz it was only later that i discovered that i got the time wrong... heh...)

Oh well... Things were ok. I didn't do too badly... Managed to find an answer to one of the quiz questions. It was like we were able to bring back the quiz to do and we could also compare answers. Everyone thought that the answer to that particular question was option B. However, I thought it was option C! But i went along with the rest... Sigh... I should have gone with my gut instinct instead...

I think these tests are quite weird considering that you are guaranteed to pass such tests even before you took it. This seems to be the trend that when one goes for a course organised by the government ministries, you will always pass the tests. That's coz they take all pains to ENSURE that you won't fail! So then i wonder: Are the ministry people so silly to think that people from social services are so stupid that they need maximum help for tests?

But let me just say that at times, the most stupid people are those FROM the ministry! They come up with all kinds of policies and SOPs to try to make people's lives difficult. Some of these policies and SOPs are also quite obviously not meant for people working on the ground. You know, it does not mean that when one has a good honours or masters degree, he/she would be a good policy maker! Yups, i hate stupid people...

Nice game!

I recently discovered this game that's super addictive. Flip Words!! I've been playing it everytime I come home. Hee... That's where my black eye rings have been coming from.

I hate D*S

Remember the earlier post i had about someone who keeps calling and hanging up on the 3rd ring? I finally realised who it's from... It's from the #@*@$^%@#$! bank that I told you about here!!

Guess what? This time, it's an automated voice machine! Terz has an entry here that writes about the exact same experience that i had.

NEVER EVER AM I GOING BACK THERE!!! YOU HEAR ME??!!! NEVER!!!! ^$&*%@^^$&*@#&*

I think I just made my point known once again...

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy

Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient. You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

Which Singaporean Blogger are you?

Congratulations, you are...

Finicky Feline of finickyfeline.liquidblade.com

You may seem sweet on the outside but behind you hide a sharpened claw. You have the observation skills of a forensic detective and can see right through people easily. You attract attention, both good and bad, but more bad than good. You've seen more assholes in life than a proctologist. The bad ones tries to screw you over but quickly learnt that its a bad move because you enjoy screwing them back accordingly.

Which Singaporean Blogger Are You?

Abrupt calls

I hate calls that hang up by the 3rd ring and does not leave me with a number to call them back. So far, today, which has just started about 3 hours ago for me, I have received a grand total of 3 missed calls! And the worst part is, they all got abruptly cut off before i could pick up the call!! Argh!!! How irritating can that be? I really hope it's not the bank trying to call me again... I would probably scream at them!

I was woken up by a crowd of people singing "老鼠爱大米". It turns out that someone on the opposite block was going to get married and the bridegroom was trying to get into the bride's house. Well, it was supposed to be a happy event so I guess I didn't try to kill them for waking me up too early... Was trying to catch a glimpse of the bride but she took too long to come out... I gave up eventually. Heh.

Forgot that I had a dinner appointment yesterday until M reminded me... Went for dinner at Fish & Co., located at the glasshouse yesterday. It was quite fun... Met up with friends that I have not seen for quite a while. Also had to endure some horrendous singing from the "live" band that made a few of us cringe as he went off key on some notes. It didn't help that the speaker was really close to our table so we had to shout to make ourselves heard. But all in all, I think most of us enjoyed the meeting up, to update each other about the things that are going on in our lives.

I wanna go sing karaoke! Does anyone wanna go?

Which Winnie the Pooh character do you like most?

This is not one of those gazillion questionnaires that would tell you your personality from Winnie the Pooh series... (Though you could do it if you wanted to here. I am a Winnie the Pooh!!)


Winnie the Pooh^_^You always like finding new stuff
and you have alot of friends.You love everyone
and like helping them but you worry too much
about your food..


Which Winnie the Pooh character are you ? (with Pics)
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A volunteer from my centre brought an Eeyore soft toy today... I liked it so much that I took quite a few photos of him in different angles! Yes, I am crazy... But oh well, most people who know me knows that!

I have never really watched an entire episode properly before. The snippets i caught were enough to tell me about the personalities. There's Eeyore, mentioned above, who is all pessimism and "woe be to me" attitude. Then there's Pooh, who is all helpful, but greedy. There's Piglet, who's really timid and all but loyal to his/her friends. (Haven't figured out his/her gender yet...) And my favourite is still Tigger!! Bouncy, funny, full of wierd ideas! But i guess he doesn't really have much depth, does he? (There's many more! You can check them out here!)

Well, a friend of me told me today that she felt that I didn't share as much as before. She says that I say: "I'm fine." when i'm not. I felt a little hurt but as I thought about it, i recognise the reality of it...

It's not like I don't wanna share anything with her, but it's just that when things happen, i would just talk it out with people who are around me most of the time. (Namely my colleagues) Besides, I forget about the issue once i get it out of my system. (Ask M, he'll tell you how many times i don't remember what i have gone through for the day and he gets super frustrated... Hee... Sorry darling!) Plus, i am usually at work when we talk so i don't really have much time to talk about things in detail anyway. So the best way to answer is, "i'm fine!". Sometimes, it's also coz i got this occupational habit that will cause me to switch to "listening" mode and not share at all... Oh well... I guess it is feels quite depressing when one is not in the country and the only way to keep in contact is through messaging software, but even that doesn't work very well...

Ok... I am sorry, Adinahaes, I shall try to share more... when you come back! *Have a chocolate?*

Tired Out II

Now, today seems to be a continuation of yesterday. Sigh...

Saw a client in the morning who told me about her and her husband's parents and how they influenced the way they parent their child right now. We are all a product of our parents and how they disciplined and interacted with us really influences the way we would parent our own children. If they set really strict rules and then scream at us when they are not in a good mood. Of course when we err or make a mistake, that's it. DEAD! Of course, there would also be those who just let us children step over them all the time. Last but not least, those who aren't even there anyway! Sigh...

Then attended to this client who wants to be a good mother to her child and a good wife for her husband but she's finding it very hard to balance both. So as a result, she's stressed... Super stressed...

After attending to both of them, i was tired out! How? If it's the same thing everyday, I think i'm going to faint very soon! But i also cannot slack... I already slack too much!! Argh!! Push push push!!

Was considering leaving church... Too many depressing things going on... But God has convinced me to stay... "Am I my brother's keeper?" That answer is obvious... "Coping with the storms of life" is the title of the sermon on Sunday. And it seems like God is telling me that we're in the storm now... Then when i shared with M, he also had the same message from God that we shouldn't leave! Argh!!! Why is God making me suffer now???? Sigh...

Am going to have dinner with people tomorrow... Dunno what agenda they have... If they are going to do politicking with me and M, then i will kill them!! ok, i won't but will scold them in the nicest possible way... hee....

Too many things to deal with... Too many thoughts to process... Too many plans to make...


I REALLY NEED HELP, OH LORD!!

Urgent update: M has said that he would cover up my mouth with his mouth to prevent me from screaming at the dinner hosts tomorrow... He just wanted this entry to be complete. *grinz*

Tired out....

It's been an emotionally tiring day... Took a phone call from a client who had wanted to commit suicide. I mean, she's ok now as she has some organic stuff that's supposed to be good for her, but when she talked to my colleague, she wasn't so stable.

Then, got a call from another of my client about the people at the community centre who is making her life difficult coz she was denied an application for bursary for her sister. Of course she was late for the application la but had the misfortune of talking to someone who obviously was so not in charge of the whole thing... So now she is one of the pawns of this elaborate play that we call office politics...

Next was a couple who had not been on good terms and talking to both of them can be quite blood-spew-inducing... I mean, the husband was obviously a man of few words while the wife was wanting some answers from him. The result? A client who wants me to tell her what her husband told me and to interrogate him while i'm at it. Sigh...

Last but not least, to top it off, was a client who was obviously distressed with the owner of the house that she was renting. She just needed a listening ear and i tried... But when she told me that i'm someone who was sweet and did not know what was misery, i bristled... Ok, i mean, i am not the expert on sufferings, not having gone through very difficult stuff... But, neither am i the innocent wide-eyed girl at 7 years old.

So yeah... Though i did not do anything earth-shaking, or made the world more beautiful, but i sure tried my best. If my best isn't good enough, then i guess i gotta try harder and find more resources to do my job!

Oh God!! Help me!!

While you were out, 1000 windows bloomed...

Read this.

hahahahahahahahahahahahha..... i like the last sentence of the article.

My office works with all D*ll PeeCees and they are all visually slowing down by a lot, and i really mean a lot... I seem to be the only one who knows how to deal with the pesky little viruses and trojans that invade the Micros**t systems and it's totally tedious to do that...

There was this virus that invites people to go to a website with seemingly interesting articles and then it will download and execute a file into your PeeCee if you open the link. So on 2 occasions, my 2 friends sent such links to me... the first time, i clicked on it and guess what? My iBook was immune to that attack coz the file cannot be opened by my OS!! hahahahaha.... then i helped my friend clear her system by searching for a solution on the net for her...

I think more people should change to Mac.

However, a lot of people would defend the PeeCee fervently... This simply shows the computer age debate about which OS is better. I mean, i only recently converted to Mac but i've never looked back since... I'm so much faster and steadier in terms of connection to the wireless network and i get admiring looks when i take my iBook out in public places! Even my sister was exclaiming like a suah koo when i first brought it back.

But maybe it's just as well that PeeCee users don't switch over... Or else virus authors might just start to attack Macs more!

So... PeeCee users, just stay with Bill ok?

The world is changing (Part II)

Yups, seems like i'm hearing more and more of how the world is changing...

Anyway, this stemmed from a conversation i had with an associate counsellor when he commented about the family photo on my friend's PC. Then we started to talk about how many people might put their other half's photo as wallpaper until at least, when their first child is born... That's when the child takes over the prime position. The AC pointed out that his ex-colleague used to put her boyfriend and later, husband's photo as the wallpaper of her work PC. However, when her child was born, photos of the child took over! So he jokingly asked her, "Your husband leh? Disappear liao ah?"

I commented that it's not right coz it means that the child has taken over the no. 1 spot in each spouse's heart. This is dangerous as they might slowly relate to each other more and more as the father/mother of their child, and not as a married couple. I've personally seen too many such couples and it kind of scares me... So my advice to those who are having children would be to take some time out for yourselves! Have a romantic date regularly, make time for each other!

As we talked more, the AC shared about a time when he asked one of his female clients if she was worried that her husband might stray. Her answer was, "I think HE has more cause to worry about me!" The AC was quite puzzled and we started to try to think of some theories about why the young women nowadays have such a different mindset as compared to those from the older generation?

Some theories we came up with were:
1) The older generation were more likely to frown upon divorce and had the concept that marriage was for keeps
2) The women nowadays are more independent financially
3) They don't only think for their children, they think of their own wellbeing as well

The AC also shared about another case whereby a woman had known that her husband was cheating on her while having her first child, but she stayed in the marriage because she believed that her child needed to have a father. He still went on womanizing and she's suffering now as she had a few more children after the first... Such cases really break your heart and as someone watching from the outside, it is easy to say: "Stupid woman... Why didn't she just leave him in the beginning?!" But i guess things are not as simple as it seems... Sigh...

Anyway, was reading this mag a few weeks ago and one article briefly talked about what views women in their 40s had about dating. Those single and divorced talked about how some of the men that they dated once backed away really quickly when the women initiated a second date. However, these women were not looking at marriage as what the men had assumed but more of companionship... After all, those who were married before probably would not want to jump into marriage so quickly either!

So, things are changing and as I worry about it, i also remember that God is still the same yesterday, today and forever more. Thus, really have to trust Him for my relationship with M... And i am also learning that i have to work at making my relationship work, not just waiting for things to happen... Really glad that M took the time to do things with me... It was just the thing to give me enough energy to carry on with the relationship!

So yeah... must really pray... For God to be the head of our relationship!

The world is changing

I was on the bus home today when i overheard this conversation.

"The world is changing! it's like girls are liking girls and guys are liking guys..."

As i heard this, i must say that i totally agree with the speaker. i mean, i definitely see more of the lesbians walking in the streets nowadays and they are also becoming more and more open about it. What i noticed was even those who are seemingly pretty are also in such relationships. Actually, i can understand to a certain extent what might have been an influence in their choice of partners.

There were times when i was in secondary school that i felt the need to protect my best friends. It didn't help that i had a very domineering character plus the short hair that we all had to sport. Also, i spent more time with my girl friends than my guy friends so my fondness of them can give me flashes of extra weird feelings. Well, i guess the fact that i'm in a co-ed school definitely helped.

Another theory i have could be coz they have been hurt by the guys in their life, whether be it their father or their boyfriends. I heard from a friend that her friend became a lesbian because she had been hurt by her previous boyfriends and this gal pal was so nice to her that they fell in love. Some girls might have fathers who are absent or abusive and thus they might have the perception that all males are going to be like this so they rather have relationships with other females.

Well, there are many theories out there and i don't know which is right but i believe (personal belief hor...) that people are not genetically programmed to like people of the same gender. I also believe (person belief again...) that no one is genetically programmed to be the gender they are not born in (ok, there are examples of the XYY males and all but there must be an explanation that i dunno abt... God knows!).

I figured this post might offend some people who happen to read it so must apologise coz i didn't mean to offend anyone... Just voicing out my thoughts... Of course if you wanna leave me hate mails, i also can't help it and i will ignore it...

Ok la... dun think i'm so famous so i think the likelihood of the above situation should be quite small, but nonetheless just to be on the safe side la hor? Singaporeans are "kiasi" wat...

Tired...

You know, i'm seriously falling behind all my work... I have gazillions of case records to write, tens and thousands of gazillion cases to close, and millions and gazillions of phone calls to make (you get my point...)!

i'm swamped... So i conclude:

I HAVE TO STOP LOOKING AT MY IBOOK DESPITE HOW MUCH I LOVE IT!!!

Yeah... i spend too much time on my beloved... way too much... I can be using my iBook even though i know i have loads of things to do... I think i might have to revise my rule of never bringing my work home... Too many things to do!

Talking about work brings me to the memory of the time when i was having lunch with my colleagues and someone asked me about someone in the social work world. I was vehemently pointing out that this person is a disgusting type of person. She's quite senior and when i meet her at meetings, she would never talk to you unless she wants something from you.

I don't like such people. I rather they never talk to me than to talk just for a favor or information. My personal style is to talk to people because i want to know them better and build up a relationship. So i find it offending to suddenly have someone come up to me and be friendly even though you might have met him/her before but has not been particularly chummy.

Oh well... Anyway, i must remember to look at my work and not at my iBook no matter how nice it is...

Maybe then i might be less tired. heh.

Lunch appointment

M took leave today to go for a job interview, after which he came to my centre to meet me for lunch. I was so happy coz i had never really done something like this before and for him to come all the way to the far east must have been quite a hassle for him, but he still came!! heh... ok, i'm gushing too much...

But was just thinking about this and thanking God for the lunch appointment coz it brought me a much needed relief from work. Before i met M, i had my clinical supervision and what my supervisor feedbacked really struck me that i sucked big time as a social worker... I know that i wasn't good but never knew that i was that bad... Well, i definitely didn't feel good la... But guess it was a painful but necessary evil coz otherwise, i wun be able to help my client!

Yeah, and back to the topic about thanking God for the lunch appointment... M and I went to Delifrance and eat and we had a good time just talking and also having our routines changed. I felt very much better and it sent the message that M really cared about me a lot!

It's like there were times when i felt like M wasn't spending enough time with me and that he didn't love me anymore. But it's in times like these that i i feel that God has been so good to me by sending M into my life! hee... yups, i'm gushing again... maybe it's gotta do with the time i am typing this...

Anyway, i know that M would read this post and i just want to tell him, "Thank you for the wonderful time we had together. I thank God for who you are and the fact that He has put us together... May we have more of such sweet moments... I love you! =)"

Yes, and the rest of you can go to the toilet now to puke. *grinz*

4km...

I went jogging around the reservoir near my home today after work. My sister insisted on going with me as well even though she had just came back from her canoeing CCA earlier. So off we went and at first, she was really very fast... as if someone was chasing her... hahaha... but anyway,i managed to catch up with her by the 1.5km mark... that was when she slowed down la... think she was tired...

Anyway, as we were jogging(or rather i was doing a slow jog while she was walking...), she started telling me abt the things going on with all the members in the CCA. She told me A's relationship with S, then how F & P sucked as they were very fierce and all, and also her "sisters" and "brothers" and "grandmothers". Yeah, we had kind of a good talk... i mean, i wasn't preaching or nagging at her and it was neutral ground so i think it's quite a pleasant time for us both. She gets to talk to me, i get to listen to wat's going on in her life.

I mean, it's quite difficult to talk to her coz i was always the disciplinarian and a fierce one at that, then plus the fact that she's now in her teens so she wun talk to us if she could. Sigh... I guess i'm to blame for ruining the relationship since i screamed at her so many times in the past, did all kinds of things to irritate her and also rejected her so many times... Well, of course if i were to look at the time when she was born, it was kind of like the wrong time since i was undergoing the teenage stage and full of angst... The world was against me!! Nonetheless, it was not right la... sigh...

Well, guess it's time to make amends... However, I think my parents would would have to take a more active role in the discipline of her. It's like i have to refuse to go to the parent-teacher meeting on my mother's behalf so that she could be in charge of my sister, not me. Need to set boundaries!!

Guess it's gonna be a long long road... definitely more than 4km!